Ee Soon’s

  I am wondering:

• who reads my blog?
• how many readers do I have?
• do I have readers that check my blog everyday?
• is there anyone noticed that my blog has changed to http://eesoonng.blogspot.com instead of friendster?
• do I have those readers that waiting for my updates?
• what is my readers age range?
• what do my readers do for living?
• how to increase the number of readers?

  So many wonders.

  I was creating a new blog and applying for Nuffnang ads yeaterday, whole day doing it! So tired… til now, things still not done yet. haiz. I am becoming more n more impatient lately. I can’t even wait for a minute! haihz!

  I got a comment from Mr How yesterday (on my new blog). I was so so shock!!!! I miss Mr How, miss his writting, miss his word. Mr How, if you are reading this, update your blog laaaaa!!! I believe there are many people out there are waiting for your blog post too!

  Did I tell anyone here about the new job I got? I will be starting my job next year. In the meantime before I start my new job, I will be working in supermarket. It has been a while… I mean 2 years… that I resign from the job. Now I am doing it again! Lalala~ feeling a bit excited and nervous… hehe.

  I am out tonight~ tomorrow will be out too! see you on sunday la! hrmm.. I think I have things to do on Sunday too! Arha! I love being busy~ ^^

  Day by day, week by week, month by month, year by year… time flies~ It’s gonna be year 2010!

  Had you ask yourself, what have you done over the pass 10 years of your life? You bought yourself a car? You have got a girl/boy friend? You graduated with UPSR/PMR/SPM/STPM/diploma/degree/master..? You got your dream job?

  Had you ask yourself, what have changed in you over the pass 10 years other than your age? Your height? weight? Marital status? Hair colour? Health? Welth? Number of friends?

  What has never changed over the pass 10 years in your life? Your name? Your personality? Your dreams? Your stand? Your promise? Your secrets?

  Ah~ things changed, people changed, everything changed as time passed. What about you? Do not waste your time on regreting what you have done wrong/not-so-well/badly in the past. Tresure and utilise the time before it flies away, make things right if you think it’s wrong.

  Do remember, time is unrepeatable; once passed, FOREVER gone.

  Are you close with your relatives? Do you like being around with your relatives? How often you being visited by your relatives? Do you know who are your relatives?

  Ok, don’t mind the questions above, just craps.

  My relatives just came to my house this afternoon and I am feeling extremely uncomfortable!!!! I do not know what to talk about end up all of them keep on asking about me! WTF!! I am not those famous actress or what what mystery person that people are so curious on their lives! Why do they want to know about me???? AHhh… I just HATE to talk about myself. These are the common questions relatives will ask me:

1. Are you studying or working?
2. What’ve you study?
3. What field are you in (if working)?
4. How’s your future plan? What you want to do later?
5. Oh, you are working and studying! So where do you work? What is your job?

  Do that sounds familiar to u too?? ahh… sienzz.. Don’t they have other things to talk about beside discussing my life?? Why not share their life experiences with me??? Why not talk about themselves???? Ggrrrr…

  Okay, I admit that my communication skills is bad. I admit I am having low self-esteem. I know I know… I am doing my best to improve myself, although the progress is slow… and I am still having low self-confident.. but I am working hard on it still!! Haiz. What to do? Any suggested program for me? Or activities? Or talk/seminars/classes for me to help improve my communication and self-image??? aih..

  I know my relatives are good people. It’s just me who feeling uncomfortable with them, they just being polite to me, I get that. I should attend those emotions-control class (if have). Sometimes I just can’t control my emotions.. anger comes and go so easily and fast!!

  I am trying to add some advertisements here so that my blog have more things to view. I’ve done the registeration part, done the account setting part, already got my HTML code, BUT I can’t put/display/insert/add into my blog!!! Why????????? What is the problem now?

  Do friendster allow their blogger to advertise? Hmm…. I mean, use blog to advertise for others? err.. means… ARghhh, advertising laa!!! Ermm… mama…. papa… I don’t know what to do now! So frustrated!!!!! Grrr… please, angels come and rescue me, guide me my dear please… Thank you very much. VERY VERY MUCH. I need help from IT professions.

  I’ve went to a kindergarten for interview few weeks ago, and then, I got a call from the principal! Wohoho… she ask me to sign contract on next Monday! Yeah! Should I be happy? hmmm… why shouldn’t I? Do I have the reasons not to be happy for this? hmm… actually…

1. I need to travel around 40minutes to reach the place. Time consuming…
2. I do not have any guidelines on what to do and how to start on the works.
3. My student’s are all English-educated, so they are using english to communicate. I find it quite hard for me and a bit worry to communicate with them because my English is poor.
4. Further more, I am suppose to teach them Mandarin. It is a BIG challenge for me to teach Mandarin using my poor English.
5. The salary they offered is not attractive enough.

   I am happy that I got the job. In the same time worrying about my ability to achieve the task! Can I do it? I am hesitate on my ability! Ahhh!! Hate that low self-esteem in me!!!! Ggrrr… can’t I just be confident to myself???? What a failure!! 

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  My life is changing, everyone’s does! I hope it’s changing to the better ones. Best of luck to everyone!! Oh ya, Christmas is coming, Merry Christmas in advance to everyone here! muaxxx~

  What is going on with friendster? I will check my friendster account once or twice a month… but what a shock!! How come…? no , should ask.. WHY? Why is the header changed? Why green? Where is the smiley logo? the friendster logo? Where is that logo??? Since when it changed to this…? And what is all this friendster word in a green cloud about??? Whoaa?? question marks on, around and in my head!

  Today is 7 Dec 2009, no news, nothing… If you do care about me and very very concern on me + paying > 100% attention to what I’ve told you, you should know what am I waiting for. I guess I will put my focus on my kindy job la~ Wait til I get my diploma! Hmmp!!

  Last Saturday I went to KTV and book fair. It was so fun!! I was with a friend and we sang for 4 hours! wow… ya… 4 hours!! After all the singing, my throat was itchy… erkhem… then the book fair! I saw a lot of books! And all are selling at VERY AFFORTABLE price!!! I just wish I can grab as much as I can but I do not have enough cash in my wallet… aih… what a waste… PLUS, the books that I saw do not attract me much… If I went and take a look one by one, I think I will probably buy a lot of books! But too bad… no mood to look at books on that particular time..

  Sunday is the day I went to my aunt’s house. I brought my cousins to buy watches. As a reward for their improvement in studies. So they are happy, I am happy, we are all happy. At night, I have dinner with my family~ satisfaction~ happy~ blessed~ loved. I am an easy-satisfied person. Little things like being around with my family members for few minutes will make me feel very happy and satisfy al’d.

  Today is Monday. A very good Monday to everyone here!!
  I am planning to KL today. planning to search for a job nearby my house later too. hoho.. hopefully can found one who pays me well. $$$$ 
  I am feeling a little sleepy right now, so.. ciao~~

  There are so many choices we need to make in our life. Every action, every meal, everything are decisions to make. What could happen if I don’t make any choice? a-ha-ha. The decision for not to make any choices is considered the result of the choice I’ve made. So, we can’t runaway from making choices. We need to choose even though sometimes we don’t realize that we were choosing. You make a choice to read my blog and I choose to crap in my blog. These are all choices!

Things that I need to choose:

1. work as primary school teacher OR kindergarten teacher?
2. take the job in somewhere I need to travel for 40 minutes OR ask for a job located 2 blocks away from my house?
3. start doing assignment OR continue blogging?
4. swim OR sleep?
5. walk OR cycling?
6. pasar pagi OR pasar malam?
7. books OR newspapers?
8. movie OR karaokie?
9. junk food OR fruit?
10. wait OR ask?

  Ah… boring. I just upload some photos on facebook. haha. obviously shown how bored I am. ahaha. I choose to sleep early tonight and go karaokie tomorrow!! I choose to stop blogging and watch TV now!! yuhoo~ tata.

  As I promised on the last blog, I will write about the event on the night. What event you asked? It was my primary school’s 80 years aniversary celebration night. Me and a couple of teachers were incharge of one of performances, so we decided to have aerobic dance. The night was quite happening, student performances were great! All the students were putting efford on their performance, all so serious, and we teachers felt it. So proud of our students!

  It was quite rush that night because I got their outfit and the assessories at the last minute, I thought I was gonna be late but here goes, I reach there on time around 6pm, the event start at 7pm and guess what? Students performance start around 8pm++ and our group is the last 4th to perform… So I thought I was late with all those assessories, but after we prepare all the things like dressing up n make ups, we wait for hours to go on stage… aih… wasting time.. We sneak on others performance (we were told not to go out) on stage and wow! There were doing good, I mean real good! So… nervous…

  By the time our group’s turn, I feel so so happy and nervous for my students! They look so pretty and energetic. When the music start, their movement starts too! Although one of the student missed up some steps but overall, it ended up with the audience’s loud applause. Not bad huh!? haha. I feel so release when they’ve done the dance. Pheww..

  So that’s all about the event of the night. haha, seems like I just writing thie to fulfill my promise, haha. Don’t ya think so?

  Alright, I admit that I am very very concern about this. Tonight is the night, the night of my student’s on-stage performance, the night of people looking at my show!! My show!!! ermmm… erkhemm hemmm… ”my show”…?

  So, my students are going to perform on stage tonight! I am worry about one of the girl. That particular girl… she was not happy yesterday, same as me, BUT, I am an adult, I know how to control my emotion and facial expression but this little girl, she does not know. That’s why she was showing the long green papaya face, the “black” face during the practise time. I have no idea how she’ll manaage herself later, I hope she is ok and will do her best on stage.

  What makes me worry the most is the sudden absent of her!! My instinct tell me this girl may not show up! I hope my instinct were wrong. IF she does not show up, the whole dance will be screw up!! And now, I am thinking of the back up plan, thinking of what to do IF she really does not shows up. Ahh… I am worry, very worry.

  Hoping the BEST for tonight! Wish me luck everyone!! I really do need that support. Thanks. Will be blog about the night in the next blog! CHaoo~~ gonna get ready for tonight.